catch-up

Seeing that my blogging took such a hiatus, I feel a need to do a recap of the past two months.

Well, I definitely have seen that no matter how motivated and ready I think I am to take responsibility for doing what I can to control how my genes are expressed, there are some external factors that make that goal hard to maintain! Change is so hard no matter how much I want it. Humans are creatures of habit, and over the years, I've created some habits that aren't so conducive to my well-being. So this is a period of relearning.

I started out so motivated and excited and then lost momentum about after one week. Then when school demands were high and emotional life rough (winter weather, performance anxiety of being a beginner at something (nursing), not having an outlet for dealing with the illness, suffering, and death one often sees as a health care professional, etc.), my personal primary prevention project became lost its position as a priority and dropped down to a faint existence.

And it's so easy to be hard on myself. I get so frustrated when I realize how I put such an important thing on the back burner, but I would like to remember to be gentle with myself. Otherwise, I'll only end up with a backlash and rebellion against my new habits.

In summary, change is hard no matter how much you think you want it. So I plan on working on strategies to help me overcome this because will power alone won't do it. I need some tools and some support and a simplified plan.